personal talk

this kickstarter business, it being overfunded and shit, I kinda did a little cry today. I feel silly but like… I don’t know how to even communicate how bad the last few years have been, and naturally that’s not something you ever wanna mention when asking people to buy your shit or something you wanna publicize when people are asking why your comic isn’t updating, so you shrug and say “I’m sorry I’m doing my best” instead of “I am the solitary breadwinner with 2-3 jobs, my marriage is falling apart in spite of efforts to fix it, and I am depressed constantly, all for reasons: X, Y, and Z.” And I’m sure if I told people X,Y and Z they’d be sympathetic, but you can’t. You don’t do that. And so I just kept lying to everyone and acting like everything was fine and shrugging my shoulders and hoping people are okay with me just saying “I’m sorry I got too busy” all the time, just sorta hoping that if I kept working hard it’d pay off and having no idea when that would ever happen…

… and now this kickstarter business. I just, I dunno, I had a little baby cry over it. It’s really dumb, and the profit off it probably doesn’t seem like an amount worth crying about, but after the last few years, I’d probably cry over $500. I’m just really really happy and this weight fell off my shoulders, and I dunno… I dunno. It feels good for once.